#Recovery
#shadesofgray I am constantly wondering if this feeling of frailty, being fragile, will ever recede. Even when days are ok, when I'm involved in something that I enjoy, I still feel frail, as in I can't get more involved, do more, or step back into old activities that I used to go into hard-charging (like humanitarian causes). I still feel shy of even looking at someone's online response to a tiny disagreement-anxiety that the person might make personal attacks rather than constructively focusing on the issue. Forget dealing with small disagreements in person. Avoid at all cost.. Don't rock any boat. Don't cause the slightest discomfort to anyone, for fear of being personally attacked and too frail to be able to muddle thru it. Too frail to take on a new volunteer endeavor. Too frail to pursue anything outside my own little world. Does this feeling ever go away? Does any feeling of being comfortable in your own skin ever come back?
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