Thoughts on Aug 6 2022

 

So freaking frustrated

I'm so angry with folks who push 800# crisis lines on those who struggle with mental illness-I get it that they can't handle our mental illness-they don't comprehend it. But when they say things like "permanent fix for a temp problem" or similar when someone commits suicide, that's BS. Mental illness is a LIFELONG thing to be managed, with ups and downs that can be severe.

While external things can be the "straw that breaks the camel's back" the mental illness is NOT a temporary problem, and it ticks me off that people only attribute suicide to external factors... this is terribly SHALLOW.

And let's talk about quality of life. The person who spends 30 years in a bottle due to mental illness does NOT have quality of life- they're not managing their illness AND they are killing themselves SLOWLY. And everyone is ok with this... because- slow, passive suicide is better than sudden, violent suicide. All this while society shuns us, among other things...

#Depression #Anxiety #MentalIllness #Suicide #socialnorms

I'm reading a book by a mom who lost her 23yo son to suicide several years ago, which is an important read. I get it that survivors of someone who committed suicide are struggling, but the struggles of mental illness and everything else in life are clearly two separate things that most of society doesn't want to deal with. I get it that a crisis line may help someone get thru a day, a moment, but our reality is something that is not cured or solved-it just isn't temporary. Sure, there are situations that are devastating to everyone, and these may contribute to what brings a suicide event to fruition, but at the end of the day, the external contributions and the manner of death (gun, poison, whatever) are not the primary issue, despite everyone around us focusing on those things.
I'm processing my thoughts ongoing right now. Last time I did this was when I posted that I actually relate to the 2019 Joker portrayal by Joaquin Phoenix, how, over and above his schizophrenia and other mental illness, he ends up over the top while trying to deal with cruelty, frustration, discrimination, and everything that society dishes out to him. TheMighty removed my thoughts on this at the time stating that my thoughts were too triggering for someone.